Sometimes life SUCKS.
It's hard and no matter how hard we try, we can't always stop ALL of the darts* of the enemy, BUT you CAN choose how you deal with the pain and what course your healing takes.
I am not perfect in any way shape or form, but I do try to do the things that I do with the best of my ability. I FAIL hard sometimes and I get hurt. I have even hurt other people in the process... Something that I am not happy about but still try to learn from.
I want everyone to know that in everything that I do, I try my best to consider my children first. I know that my new job and upcoming move have been a recent topic of conversation both positive and negative.
I want to extend an invitation to anyone who is concerned or that would like to voice their opinion on my decisions to please contact me. I believe that my number is posted on my Facebook, but if you would rather e-mail, then please feel free. My e-mail address is j_osborne1982@yahoo.com.
I would like you to know that I value your opinion but please know that it is just that... your opinion. My title to this BLOG may be a little extreme but I need you to know that I'm not excited about the way my life has turned out either. Maybe you would have done something different if you were in my shoes, that's fine... your not alone! There are a lot of people that would do other peoples lives differently. There are things in my life that I would have done differently also. I WOULD rather eat a light bulb laced with lead and dipped in rat poison then to be away from my kids. Only seeing them so often feels worse than any pain that I have had to experienced thus far! I would give anything to be a constant fixture in their life but there are deeper factors that you don't consider that may cause you to look at the situation differently.
I hope that my life and decisions don't detour you from paying attention to your own life... You may have it all together and you may have made all of the right decisions in life but I didn't. I am flattered that you find my life interesting enough to dwell on but if you don't mind, please either add to it with positive criticism and prayer (unless you are a person that is a mentor or that I have given the authority to speak into my life, you have the freedom to express your opinion) or focus on a new hobby...
*Ephesians 6:10-20
We always make our situations appear larger than they are. Remember this, Jesus illustrates needing Faith only the size of a mustard seed to move a mountain (Matt 17:20) and again the size of a mustard seed to uproot a tree (Luke 17:6).
So....
If the Shield of Faith (Ephesians 6:16) is used to stop/quench the fiery darts of the enemy, and the necessary "Faith" to move mountains is the size of a mustard seed... we can imply that the shield of faith even being the size of a mustard seed is large enough to stop those fiery darts.
Again you see, we have a tendency to make our situations larger than they are... The enemy is out to cause us to lose perspective and live in fear. Fear is giving up or giving over control. That's why the word says... "For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.(2 Timothy 1:7) Self-discipline expects and commands control. If we are disciplined enough to stay in the WORD of God (John 1:1-2) Then we will have Faith because Faith comes by hearing... (Romans 10:17) and then we will be able to equip our selves with the Knowledge of Christ and understand the free Gift of Grace and that in turn will cause us to live a life of authority and healing.
Live Intentionally!
